Huwebes, Oktubre 19, 2017

It's not love

Roses will just wither
Chocolates will be gone after eaten
Love letters are dry
That's what you said

It's too cheesy
It's shameful
It's not like you to this
That's what you said

"I'm sorry I did that"
"I'm sorry I didn't know"
"Why didn't you tell me"
Do I have to say it all?

I put the blame on you
You accepted your mistake
But what happens after it?
Why repeat it?

Does hurting me boost your ego?
Does knowing I'm badly into makes you more confident?
Does me being in love with you gave you the right to make me feel this way?
Can't you see I'm dying.

I Never Asked for These

Fragrant red roses
Sweet chocolates with a kiss
That huge stuffed animals
I never asked for that

A serenade from deep within your heart
Sweet words from written letters
Candle lit dinner dates
We never had any of that

Stargazing with you just by my side
A long walk on the beach with you at night
A kiss on the forehead and a sweet goodnight
I dreamed of that but I never asked

Diamond ring
Promise of forever
I never asked any of these
Why? Because you made me feel like I don't deserve this.

Your Someone, Hopefully

I wish I could be that someone
Someone who you think about all the time
Someone who you'll call "mine"
And one day, you'll hold my hand

I'm not perfect and so you are
But I feel whole with you
I'm always into you, near or far
Just stay, please do

But why am I hurting?
Why am I crying?
What am I feeling?
When you're not yet leaving.

I feel broken now
I feel so down
This isn't right
I can't see the light

You always say how I mean to you
But your actions never do
I'm starting to hate myself
All because of you

I'm no longer that confident person I was
Thank you, for waking me up
I don't deserve love
I realized it now

You couldn't introduce me the right way
I should send signs so you'll know what I want
I need to tell you everything for you to understand
And no matter how I try, you'll still forget

Sometimes I wonder,
Do you love me?
Or you just need me?
Is it love? Or just a past time?

I don't deserve all of this shit, I know!
But I always end up staying,
Crying on my own
Because giving up on you is not in the option yet.

I keep building my trust for you
You keep breaking it like it was fun for you
Little do you know, I'm dying inside
But I couldn't show it, I always endure it.

I wish someday you'll treat me right
Show how precious I am
Tell me I'm pretty, though I'm not
Tell me I'm perfect all around

Can't you see we're running out of time?
Can't you feel how weak I am inside?
I'm almost done.
Let's not waste time for the wrong love.

Linggo, Abril 30, 2017

It's Me

I'm sorry if I'm like this
If I'm making you uncomfortable most of the time
For making you someone you're not
For the pressure I put you in

It is my fault, not yours
But I always make you feel worse
It's me, I am the problem
I know it, but I don't admit it

Was it because I'm expecting more from you?
The reason I make all these fights?
Am I already hurting you?
That sometimes you just say sorry

You think I'm not too happy with what we have
Maybe because I asked for too many things
And that's tiring, irritating
I know, and I'm sorry

I hope you won't give up on me
You'll stay faithful as you are
Affectionate, loving and kind
You are irreplaceable, one of a kind

I'm sorry I couldn't reply fast to your messages
I'm more sorry if I get mad you reply late to mine
I feel less important to you everytime
When I shouldn't be, I can't help it, I'm missing you

I'm sorry I bring you trouble
I feel bad seeing you cry
I feel sad if you're hurting
It's me, I'm sorry

I'm sorry, I put the blame on you
I'm sorry, I'm such a bad girlfriend
Don't let go of me, please
In good or bad times, promise me

I love you and I'm sorry
For making you feel wrong all the time
For all the words that pained your heart
For the flaws I have, the disappointments I give to you

I'm sorry if sometimes I make you feel like I don't love you
If sometimes I'm the one who decides
For asking for so many things
For being selfish everytime

For being a nuisance
For being a brat
I'm sorry if I cry on little things you've done
And to the things you couldn't and didn't do for me

I'm sorry if I wanted to be your priority
If I demand more of your time
If I didn't appreciate the efforts you've done
And sometimes for not feeling your love

I love you, don't question it
I'm sorry I couldn't take care of you
I couldn't make you happy
It's me at fault, I'm sorry.

Lunes, Abril 10, 2017

Simply, I Love You

I'm so fragile when I'm with you
If it's you, I'm not afraid to show how weak I am
Slowly, you're changing, you're trying
I can see it, I can feel it now

You're making time, and you're mine
The thought of it makes me feel warm
It comforts me, it shelters me
I couldn't ask for more

Yes, you're not the right one
But let me be wrong this time
I want to keep you, forever if we can
I just want you by my side

If you're a mistake, then let it be
I don't care anymore
If it's you, then I'll give in
I'll hold onto you, and will never let go

The glitter in your eyes
As the tears that falls glistened
As you say how much I mean to you
And those magical words

I'm so into you
Please don't doubt it
Please believe it
The promises, I swear to keep it

You're for me
Let's write it
It's our fate, we make it ourselves
And seal it

Don't let go
Never let go
For never will I let go of your hand
Not even destiny tries to, never ever my love

If it's you, I won't give up
If it's you, I'll believe
If it's you, if it's you
I won't love anyone else in this world

Lunes, Marso 13, 2017

Your Work vs Me

I'm nothing but an emotion that messes you up
I am no better than your job
You don't get paid by loving me
And I can't offer you anything but my feelings

I hate myself for demanding your time
I hate myself even more for being hurt about it
You need that job, than you need me
I know it too well but still I'm being like this

I'm sorry if most of the time I'm being a drama queen
I want your attention so bad that I start an argument
But I don't think you care that much
Because at the end of the day, it's me who calls you first

These days, talking to you gets harder
Seeing you for a brief moment becomes painful
Because everytime we meet it seems like you only care about one thing
Physical contacts

All I can see in your eyes is lust
Where is the love?
I can't see it
I can't feel it

I know you're busy, you're way too busy that sometimes you forget about me
Please, atleast, give me some of your time
Or don't make promises when you can't do it
Don't make me hope for nothing

I understand you, but what if I get tired?
What if someone do the things you should be doing?
Do I really matter enough?
Or it's just that, I'm just expecting for too much?

I'm sorry if I'm thinking this way
I can't help it
I'm sensitive, I can't even handle myself
I shouldn't be like this

I love you, and I should understand you
I should accept the things that I couldn't get from you
I should adjust to what is convenient for you
I should not compare myself to your job because I'm nothing better than it

I love you, and I should wait
I should wait for your text or call
I shouldn't bother you
I shouldn't be a problem for you

I'm sorry for being so messed up
For falling for you like this
I'm sorry if I wrote this, I couldn't tell you
I tried, but you're too busy to listen

I tried, but my words doesn't seem to get you
Or are you ignoring me?
Or you just don't care about how I feel?
No, no. No. You're just busy.

You're busy and you're tired
You're tired and you fall asleep whenever we got the chance to talk
And I have to wait again for another time
And the same thing happens and now I'm tired

Linggo, Marso 12, 2017

To Love

I hate to say this
But I admit, I'm a fool in love
So easily, I fell
And now, it's all I have

To love is not as easy as what it seems like
But to not love is harder than to love
We give and we receive
But does not always go that way

To really love is not giving and expecting something in return
Real love is unconditional
We choose to give and to give
Even if we become empty

To love is making a person happy
Even if it means letting go of our own happiness
We can't help it
Because to love is giving up everything

To love you is like walking on a tight rope
There's the fear of falling apart
Of breaking into pieces
But there's the joy every step taken

In love, we learn to open ourselves more
With you, I became vulnerable
A little dependent but stronger
A little clumsy but better

There's no words can explain what really love is
Because words is not enough
Love is love
We'll feel it no matter what

Miyerkules, Marso 1, 2017

I'm Missing You

I'm missing you
I read the messages you sent
I'm missing you
I listened to your recorded voice

I know we just said goodnight
But it feels empty again
I want to see your face once more
I want to hug you longer

I'm counting days again
I wish time pass by quickly
I want to hold you
And never let you go

I love you more than yesterday
I want to be with you
Can you hear the words I whisper in the air?
Did it reached you or the wind blew it away?

When I'm with you the colors are so bright
Without you it's darker than night
I'm missing you
Can you stay with me tonight?

I'm missing you, would you say it too?
What are you doing now?
Why are you making me feel this way?
Please don't make me wait for too long

I'm missing you and your smiles
The way your eyes twinkle like the stars
I don't need a galaxy from the sky
You're more than enough to spark up my universe

Miyerkules, Pebrero 15, 2017

I Still Love You

We don't spend time together that much
Once a week, time is too short
I feel lonely, I feel sad
But don't worry I understand

I know you love me
You told me so
But doesn't mean it's enough
It's not right, but I would demand

Buy me flowers, send me gifts
Write me letters to read
Show your love not just with words
Not just with your hugs and kisses, don't make me feel worse

I know you're not that kind of man
But how can you stay like that?
How can you not think of doing something I might like?
How can you just think I'm okay with what we have?

I still love you, though it somehow hurts
I have to adjust in everything
And I'm doing it just to keep you mine
Because I'm afraid I'm not good enough for you

I still love you, though I do it all
I love you though you know nothing at all
I still love you though you lack effort
Because with only you, I feel fine

Please tell me I'm beautiful even if I'm not
Tell me I'm the girl you've dream of all your life
Make me feel love, make me laugh
Don't make me do it all

I love you
I love you so
But I can't help thinking
I don't mean that much to you

Sabado, Pebrero 11, 2017

Yes to Love

I thank God for bringing someone like you in my life
You bright up my day with your sweet messages
I wake up feeling great each day knowing that you love me
You make me feel wanted and special and that is more than I deserve

I always think of you, busy or not
I will always make time for you no matter what
All I know is that I love you more than I ever loved someone before
And I hope our love will not fade or wither

I always pray to God to keep you safe
To help us get through anything
To keep us together even if we are apart
To make us fall in love deeper each day

Let's not break each other's trust
Let's be honest, always
Let's not give up in rough times
Let's stay strong for our love to last

I will always be here for you
You can vent everything to me
I love you to the moon and back
To infinity and beyond

Lunes, Enero 2, 2017

I'm Falling

I'm afraid this will make a space between me and you
But if I keep this inside I might waste the chance
The chance to say how you mean to me
The chance to tell you that I'm falling for you

The time we spent is too short
The feelings came rushing straight to my heart
We can't hide from love, or avoid it
So I'll just feel it until I get tired of it

This is a wrong love
An unrequited love
A love that will only bring pain
A love that won't last long

Don't worry, you don't have to love me back
You don't have to return the feelings that I give to you
You don't have to push yourself to me
Because we're too different

I'm falling in love with you
I wanted to tell you so
This is the chance
I'm trying to be brave