Huwebes, Oktubre 19, 2017

It's not love

Roses will just wither
Chocolates will be gone after eaten
Love letters are dry
That's what you said

It's too cheesy
It's shameful
It's not like you to this
That's what you said

"I'm sorry I did that"
"I'm sorry I didn't know"
"Why didn't you tell me"
Do I have to say it all?

I put the blame on you
You accepted your mistake
But what happens after it?
Why repeat it?

Does hurting me boost your ego?
Does knowing I'm badly into makes you more confident?
Does me being in love with you gave you the right to make me feel this way?
Can't you see I'm dying.

I Never Asked for These

Fragrant red roses
Sweet chocolates with a kiss
That huge stuffed animals
I never asked for that

A serenade from deep within your heart
Sweet words from written letters
Candle lit dinner dates
We never had any of that

Stargazing with you just by my side
A long walk on the beach with you at night
A kiss on the forehead and a sweet goodnight
I dreamed of that but I never asked

Diamond ring
Promise of forever
I never asked any of these
Why? Because you made me feel like I don't deserve this.

Your Someone, Hopefully

I wish I could be that someone
Someone who you think about all the time
Someone who you'll call "mine"
And one day, you'll hold my hand

I'm not perfect and so you are
But I feel whole with you
I'm always into you, near or far
Just stay, please do

But why am I hurting?
Why am I crying?
What am I feeling?
When you're not yet leaving.

I feel broken now
I feel so down
This isn't right
I can't see the light

You always say how I mean to you
But your actions never do
I'm starting to hate myself
All because of you

I'm no longer that confident person I was
Thank you, for waking me up
I don't deserve love
I realized it now

You couldn't introduce me the right way
I should send signs so you'll know what I want
I need to tell you everything for you to understand
And no matter how I try, you'll still forget

Sometimes I wonder,
Do you love me?
Or you just need me?
Is it love? Or just a past time?

I don't deserve all of this shit, I know!
But I always end up staying,
Crying on my own
Because giving up on you is not in the option yet.

I keep building my trust for you
You keep breaking it like it was fun for you
Little do you know, I'm dying inside
But I couldn't show it, I always endure it.

I wish someday you'll treat me right
Show how precious I am
Tell me I'm pretty, though I'm not
Tell me I'm perfect all around

Can't you see we're running out of time?
Can't you feel how weak I am inside?
I'm almost done.
Let's not waste time for the wrong love.

Linggo, Abril 30, 2017

It's Me

I'm sorry if I'm like this
If I'm making you uncomfortable most of the time
For making you someone you're not
For the pressure I put you in

It is my fault, not yours
But I always make you feel worse
It's me, I am the problem
I know it, but I don't admit it

Was it because I'm expecting more from you?
The reason I make all these fights?
Am I already hurting you?
That sometimes you just say sorry

You think I'm not too happy with what we have
Maybe because I asked for too many things
And that's tiring, irritating
I know, and I'm sorry

I hope you won't give up on me
You'll stay faithful as you are
Affectionate, loving and kind
You are irreplaceable, one of a kind

I'm sorry I couldn't reply fast to your messages
I'm more sorry if I get mad you reply late to mine
I feel less important to you everytime
When I shouldn't be, I can't help it, I'm missing you

I'm sorry I bring you trouble
I feel bad seeing you cry
I feel sad if you're hurting
It's me, I'm sorry

I'm sorry, I put the blame on you
I'm sorry, I'm such a bad girlfriend
Don't let go of me, please
In good or bad times, promise me

I love you and I'm sorry
For making you feel wrong all the time
For all the words that pained your heart
For the flaws I have, the disappointments I give to you

I'm sorry if sometimes I make you feel like I don't love you
If sometimes I'm the one who decides
For asking for so many things
For being selfish everytime

For being a nuisance
For being a brat
I'm sorry if I cry on little things you've done
And to the things you couldn't and didn't do for me

I'm sorry if I wanted to be your priority
If I demand more of your time
If I didn't appreciate the efforts you've done
And sometimes for not feeling your love

I love you, don't question it
I'm sorry I couldn't take care of you
I couldn't make you happy
It's me at fault, I'm sorry.

Lunes, Abril 10, 2017

Simply, I Love You

I'm so fragile when I'm with you
If it's you, I'm not afraid to show how weak I am
Slowly, you're changing, you're trying
I can see it, I can feel it now

You're making time, and you're mine
The thought of it makes me feel warm
It comforts me, it shelters me
I couldn't ask for more

Yes, you're not the right one
But let me be wrong this time
I want to keep you, forever if we can
I just want you by my side

If you're a mistake, then let it be
I don't care anymore
If it's you, then I'll give in
I'll hold onto you, and will never let go

The glitter in your eyes
As the tears that falls glistened
As you say how much I mean to you
And those magical words

I'm so into you
Please don't doubt it
Please believe it
The promises, I swear to keep it

You're for me
Let's write it
It's our fate, we make it ourselves
And seal it

Don't let go
Never let go
For never will I let go of your hand
Not even destiny tries to, never ever my love

If it's you, I won't give up
If it's you, I'll believe
If it's you, if it's you
I won't love anyone else in this world

Lunes, Marso 13, 2017

Your Work vs Me

I'm nothing but an emotion that messes you up
I am no better than your job
You don't get paid by loving me
And I can't offer you anything but my feelings

I hate myself for demanding your time
I hate myself even more for being hurt about it
You need that job, than you need me
I know it too well but still I'm being like this

I'm sorry if most of the time I'm being a drama queen
I want your attention so bad that I start an argument
But I don't think you care that much
Because at the end of the day, it's me who calls you first

These days, talking to you gets harder
Seeing you for a brief moment becomes painful
Because everytime we meet it seems like you only care about one thing
Physical contacts

All I can see in your eyes is lust
Where is the love?
I can't see it
I can't feel it

I know you're busy, you're way too busy that sometimes you forget about me
Please, atleast, give me some of your time
Or don't make promises when you can't do it
Don't make me hope for nothing

I understand you, but what if I get tired?
What if someone do the things you should be doing?
Do I really matter enough?
Or it's just that, I'm just expecting for too much?

I'm sorry if I'm thinking this way
I can't help it
I'm sensitive, I can't even handle myself
I shouldn't be like this

I love you, and I should understand you
I should accept the things that I couldn't get from you
I should adjust to what is convenient for you
I should not compare myself to your job because I'm nothing better than it

I love you, and I should wait
I should wait for your text or call
I shouldn't bother you
I shouldn't be a problem for you

I'm sorry for being so messed up
For falling for you like this
I'm sorry if I wrote this, I couldn't tell you
I tried, but you're too busy to listen

I tried, but my words doesn't seem to get you
Or are you ignoring me?
Or you just don't care about how I feel?
No, no. No. You're just busy.

You're busy and you're tired
You're tired and you fall asleep whenever we got the chance to talk
And I have to wait again for another time
And the same thing happens and now I'm tired

Linggo, Marso 12, 2017

To Love

I hate to say this
But I admit, I'm a fool in love
So easily, I fell
And now, it's all I have

To love is not as easy as what it seems like
But to not love is harder than to love
We give and we receive
But does not always go that way

To really love is not giving and expecting something in return
Real love is unconditional
We choose to give and to give
Even if we become empty

To love is making a person happy
Even if it means letting go of our own happiness
We can't help it
Because to love is giving up everything

To love you is like walking on a tight rope
There's the fear of falling apart
Of breaking into pieces
But there's the joy every step taken

In love, we learn to open ourselves more
With you, I became vulnerable
A little dependent but stronger
A little clumsy but better

There's no words can explain what really love is
Because words is not enough
Love is love
We'll feel it no matter what