I'm Missing You

I'm missing you
I read the messages you sent
I'm missing you
I listened to your recorded voice

I know we just said goodnight
But it feels empty again
I want to see your face once more
I want to hug you longer

I'm counting days again
I wish time pass by quickly
I want to hold you
And never let you go

I love you more than yesterday
I want to be with you
Can you hear the words I whisper in the air?
Did it reached you or the wind blew it away?

When I'm with you the colors are so bright
Without you it's darker than night
I'm missing you
Can you stay with me tonight?

I'm missing you, would you say it too?
What are you doing now?
Why are you making me feel this way?
Please don't make me wait for too long

I'm missing you and your smiles
The way your eyes twinkle like the stars
I don't need a galaxy from the sky
You're more than enough to spark up my universe

I Still Love You

We don't spend time together that much
Once a week, time is too short
I feel lonely, I feel sad
But don't worry I understand

I know you love me
You told me so
But doesn't mean it's enough
It's not right, but I would demand

Buy me flowers, send me gifts
Write me letters to read
Show your love not just with words
Not just with your hugs and kisses, don't make me feel worse

I know you're not that kind of man
But how can you stay like that?
How can you not think of doing something I might like?
How can you just think I'm okay with what we have?

I still love you, though it somehow hurts
I have to adjust in everything
And I'm doing it just to keep you mine
Because I'm afraid I'm not good enough for you

I still love you, though I do it all
I love you though you know nothing at all
I still love you though you lack effort
Because with only you, I feel fine

Please tell me I'm beautiful even if I'm not
Tell me I'm the girl you've dream of all your life
Make me feel love, make me laugh
Don't make me do it all

I love you
I love you so
But I can't help thinking
I don't mean that much to you

Yes to Love

I thank God for bringing someone like you in my life
You bright up my day with your sweet messages
I wake up feeling great each day knowing that you love me
You make me feel wanted and special and that is more than I deserve

I always think of you, busy or not
I will always make time for you no matter what
All I know is that I love you more than I ever loved someone before
And I hope our love will not fade or wither

I always pray to God to keep you safe
To help us get through anything
To keep us together even if we are apart
To make us fall in love deeper each day

Let's not break each other's trust
Let's be honest, always
Let's not give up in rough times
Let's stay strong for our love to last

I will always be here for you
You can vent everything to me
I love you to the moon and back
To infinity and beyond

I'm Falling

I'm afraid this will make a space between me and you
But if I keep this inside I might waste the chance
The chance to say how you mean to me
The chance to tell you that I'm falling for you

The time we spent is too short
The feelings came rushing straight to my heart
We can't hide from love, or avoid it
So I'll just feel it until I get tired of it

This is a wrong love
An unrequited love
A love that will only bring pain
A love that won't last long

Don't worry, you don't have to love me back
You don't have to return the feelings that I give to you
You don't have to push yourself to me
Because we're too different

I'm falling in love with you
I wanted to tell you so
This is the chance
I'm trying to be brave

You're Confusing

I ended things before it even started
I know I'm not sure of what you feel
My heart confuses me too
I just want to play safe

If we fall in love
Things will not be that great if it ends
We might fall without even knowing it wasn't love
In the end, we'll only get pain

If we continue going this way
Being more than friends and less than lovers
Life won't be the same anymore
Things are already getting complicated

If you don't like me, tell me
So I won't assume
I won't take your sweetness too much
And I won't hold on to your words

If I fall without you catching me
Wouldn't that make me a fool?
If I would love you alone
Wouldn't I get hurt?

It's better not to love
Not to care
Not to feel anything for you
If in the end, we'll realized it wasn't love

Let's just be friends
Let's just hang out like before
No dramas
No commitments

Please don't do things that will make me feel loved
Please don't be so kind
Please don't make me feel like I'm special
I don't want to assume something when it is nothing

I'm a girl after all
Though it doesn't show, I'm fragile too
I might see things differently
I might take the things you do for me wrongly

I'm afraid, I don't deserve you
Or you don't deserve me
You deserve better
Much better

It is merely love
We can't just settle for something so suddenly
Not all sparks lasts long
Some just stays for a while and never comes back

Let's be honest with our feelings
Let's not give our all and give up
Let's not waste our time
Let's not shed tears for wrong love

If I were you I'd say what's in my mind
I'll make things clear before the strings are all tangled up
I would be brave to say everything
Than to prolong and just make things hard for the both of us

If letting go is the only way
Then let's do it
Let's move on and not reminisce
For love is not like this

If You Do

You called my name for no reason at all

Your existence filled an empty space in my heart

But I'm afraid it will fall

And break apart

You push and pull

You make me confused

Like a fool

I'm slowly falling, I can't refuse

If you treat me this way more than twice

I might get used to it

I might misunderstood

That your kindness is love that I'm looking for

I'm going with your flow

Not caring whether I would drown nor survive

If falling in love with you means hurting

Then maybe I'll take the pain until I get numb

Your warm hands that held mine

The sensation still lingers on my palm

Your shoulder I fell asleep on

I'm missing it all this time

You're my first real date

Hours sitting by the water with you, I wouldn't mind

Hand in hand we walked around

I wished I didn't let go

Sometimes I wish your jokes are real

When you joke about how you like me

When you say that you want to be with me

When you say you love me

If you do have feelings for me

Please tell me straightforwardly

Because if I continue feeling this way

I might get hurt badly

If you do 

If you love me

Tell me

I might want to be with you too.

December Thoughts

I know this Christmas will never be the same
It's colder than it should be
It's sadder than it has been
It's painted black and white

Santa Claus won't be coming again tonight
Everything feels so empty
Every song felt so lonely
It's been like this lately

It is a season to be warm with love
To share kindness and the blessings we have
To give and not ask for something in return
To put a smile to the face of a man in pain

But I can hear the cries
I can see the tears falling
The hopes dying
The lights fading

My heart feels everything
The darkness and sorrows
I have to let it go
To end it all

To end it all, is not easy
To move on is harder than it seems
To say I'm fine when I'm not
It's even harder to say it these days

It is a nightmare before Christmas
But how long will it haunt us?
How much more it will burden us?
Until when will we ever bear it?

We're not strong enough to carry it all
To take all the blame
To say we're still okay when we're not
To not breakdown when it becomes unbearable

Breathe, take a sigh
Let all the stress go
Clear your mind
Calm your heart

Count your blessings
Cry if it is getting harder
Let your emotion take over you for once
The anger, the pain, the sorrow

If it feels light enough
Take a look at the stars
They're surrounded with darkness
But at some point they still manage to give light to others